But a blog is so 2000 and late...

going on a walk

I recently told a friend I wanted to start blogging and she laughed at me. "What is this, 2006?"

I've got a lot to say about our life with autism and what God has been speaking to me concerning all of it. This will be a place where I can get it all out...the good, the bad, and the ugly.

People need hope. They need to know they aren't alone. People need Jesus. And Jesus is in the middle of this with us. I know He is. He's walking through the fire with us as we navigate non-verbal autism, apraxia, PANDAS, and whatever else is coming our way. I know there's more. He gave me a heads up on it last year. He said, "It's going to look worse before it gets better." That word from above has played over and over in my mind and in my heart for months. I knew it was coming. So when we got hit with PANDAS, I wasn't surprised. Did I feel heavy and helpless? Sure. But not surprised. And we've got more testing coming. Harrison goes for cognitive testing in May, and I'm mentally preparing myself for whatever the psychologist is going to report. We also have an apraxia evaluation in May, although I already know what the diagnosis will be. Fear continues to whisper, "What if..." but I know fear is a liar. I speak it aloud daily, "FEAR, you are a liar!"

To be honest, I don't know how anyone manages this type of life without knowing Jesus. He's literally what keeps me going when I feel like everything is harmful to my child and the future is so uncertain. "It's going to look worse before it gets better." The end of that sentence is "...it gets better..." and that is what I'm clinging to. It's going to get better. Harrison has a hope and a future according to Jeremiah 29:11 and I claim that for him right now in the name of Jesus. It's going to get better and God is capable of flipping this whole story upside down for His glory in a heartbeat. I'm banking on it.

For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 (Amplified)